We also went to a friends 60th birthday party on Saturday. This was the first time in months that i had to actually put on a dress (by force), and after i was all dressed up...i kinda felt like 'Me' again. The past few weeks, I've been kinda down on myself...haven't really been taking care of myself the way i used to. Mainly because i was on Furlough from work...which was kinda unexpected...and that lessened my bank account...so I've been cutting back on some unnecessary things (ie: manicures, eyebrows, lunch/dinner dates with friends, coffee stops). It's been a hard couple of weeks, and not to mention, my abdomen hasn't really stopped growing, so it's a lot harder to shower now...not to mention shave my legs...and I've been feeling a little unattractive. It's really crazy, trying to embrace my new (expanding) body...and trying to still feel sexy, after working a 10 hour day...and having to still be a wife. If any of you have gone through this, i would greatly appreciate some advice. I know it's just a faze, and i know I'll be over it...especially since dressing up on Saturday made me feel Human again. Not to mention, i found stretch marks on my thighs and butt a few days ago, so I've been on total ick mode :'( I'm in a funk...
So yesterday, i was able to do some much needed housework...I'm actually starting to become so overwhelmed with the dogs/cat. They are shedding so much, and i feel like all i do is sweep up fur...and I'm just starting to think of the baby...and how will i be able to allow him to crawl on the floor when these guys shed so much. Plus, Sebastian (the little guy), isn't doing so well. I think it's almost time to put him down, and I'm sick over it. I've never had to make this decision...and it's really getting me down. I always said that when the time was right, I'd know...and part of me...knows. I can't help it, but he's really sick...and there is really nothing left for me to do. We really don't know what he has, but we know it's not curable...and i don't want to be selfish, but when Baby C comes along, i don't know how much time i can put into him. He's already starting to fight me with going outside...and he's starting to pee in the downstairs bathroom. I don't want to make this decision. I don't want to be the one who drops him off, and puts him out. :( This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do (so far). I know plenty of you have pets, but i definitely need some advice on keeping the pet hair down...it's starting to overwhelm me...I know plenty of you are pet lovers, but what have you done to keep the pet hair to a minimum? I need your help.
Last but not least, i made Sunday dinner...and it came out yummy! Whole wheat baked ziti...yum!!
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