News.

I called my Mom a few minutes ago...to let her know how our backspash adventure went (i'll tell you about that later)...and i was a little irritated with the conversation (blame the PMS)...and then she laid a bomb down on me. My uncle (my mom's brother), was diagnosed with cirrhosis of the liver.

Quite honestly...i don't know exactly what it is...i just know, he got it from drinking...and that he doesn't have much time left. =( I'm honestly "blank" right now. I don't know what to feel...if i should like cry...or call him...I'm just......here. Starring at this computer screen.

Has anyone ever had a family member die...and NOT KNOW HOW TO FEEL? Am i freaking normal right now? Shouldn't i be, UPSET?! Seriously. WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME.

I just googled "cirrhosis of the liver".
I think i feel nauseous.

What is cirrhosis?

Cirrhosis is a condition in which the liver slowly deteriorates and malfunctions due to chronic injury. Scar tissue replaces healthy liver tissue, partially blocking the flow of blood through the liver. Scarring also impairs the liver’s ability to

• control infections
• remove bacteria and toxins from the blood
• process nutrients, hormones, and drugs
• make proteins that regulate blood clotting
• produce bile to help absorb fats—including cholesterol—and fat-soluble vitamins

A healthy liver is able to regenerate most of its own cells when they become damaged. With end-stage cirrhosis, the liver can no longer effectively replace damaged cells. A healthy liver is necessary for survival.  Cirrhosis is the twelfth leading cause of death by disease, accounting for 27,000 deaths each year. The condition affects men slightly more often than women.